Getting out of my own way

Sometime ago I responded to a quiz in O (Oprah) magazine which asked the question, ‘What’s holding you back?’  The majority of my responses revealed what I already knew.  A fear of failure.

Whether I’ve been procrastinating a long time or I’m just a late bloomer, the moniker is not as important as what it suggests.  Fear of what might happen had the ability to dictate how I approached, or in some instances, completely avoided potential opportunities.

As a teenager, I used to swim at a park pool in the summer.  Once I impulsively decided to try the high dive.  But when I climbed the stairs and walked to the edge, I looked down and froze.  Instead of jumping  into the cool blue water, my feet did an about-face and led me back down the stairs.  Mortified and embarrassed, I fled to the bathroom to hide until my heart stopped pounding.    That’s kind of how I felt when I started working as an independent consultant. Companies were laying of.  I had bills to pay and a burning question beating me on the back of my head: can I really do this on my own?

For most of my professional career, I had the safety net of a company and a steady paycheck to sustain me.  That ended in 2008 when I faced a difficult challenge and survived.  I have been reinventing myself ever since. (hence the Twitter moniker my3rdact).  To make positive things happen, I needed to get out of my own way, made better choices – in the people I surround myself with and the battles I believe are worth fighting.  It hasn’t always been easy to do; I’m a work in progress and each day gets better.

With each new venture, I gain confidence to do what I encourage in others: be true to who I am, my talents and abilities to accomplish my professional goal, plan a dream trip and learn to take risks even when I’m not certain of the outcome.  It’s all part of a plan designed long ago, and not by me.

I don’t know what the next act holds for me, but there will be less hesitation when I’m faced with what I perceive is a difficult challenge.   The key is to keep moving and look at each situation as an opportunity.  So move to the side, doubt and worry!  I have God and courage walking with me on in my journey.

This is my time. I’m ready.

With each new venture, I gain confidence to do what I encourage in others: be true to who I am, my talents and abilities to accomplish my professional goal, plan a dream trip and learn to take risks even when I’m not certain of the outcome.  It’s all part of a plan designed long ago, and not by me.

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